On june 3rd 2006 at 11:20 am I payed my firs installment of 14.99 to Blizzard. My girlfriend and I at that time enjoyed playing it together. I had recently become unemployed and unfortunately I had alot of time on my hands. I became obsessed with raiding and getting better gear. I got up to level 60 and all my gear was "epic." I was obsessed with killing people in battlegrounds and I would play sometimes all day from within minutes of waking until 4-5 the next morning. The burning crusade came out and I stopped playing for a little while because I had started a new job and had resparked my interest in life. This only lasted a short time and I began to play again leveling my character up to level 70 as soon as got home from work. I would play from the time i got off work until i could barely keep my eyes open. I completely disregarded the needs of my girlfriend. I became irritable. By irritable, i mean I became a total asshole. I cussed and blew up over nothing at all. I lost my job due to the constant arguing with my girlfriend and I slept very little. My girlfriend finally met someone that listened to her and gave her the attention she deserved. She broke up with me and I had to move out. I was in school and at first I had a 4.0 gpa. I failed 2 classes and now cannot re-enroll for financial aid. I am 27 years old and I am writing this from my mother's house. I had to move in here as my money ran out and my girlfriend began spending all night with another man. I just uninstalled WOW and I feel that I should of done it a long time ago. My addictive personality can be a very positive thing when im interested in Art, music , work or school. In the case of World of Warcraft, I allowed a ridiculous game to completely ruin my life. I said horrible things to a woman that I know loved me and was torn apart by my addiction. I am sure that she will never forgive me so I am trying to move on with my life. In the meantime, I am overwhelmed with sadness and deep seeded depression. I am going to get my life back together because I have shattered it with this obsession. I love her so much and I completely destroyed her faith in me. I am intelligent, creative and a fairly good looking man. I was once extremely clever and confident and now I am a total wreck. The world was mine for the taking and I instead sat in a room getting out of shape using my talents to beat up on the characters on little kids and social outcasts. I am too embarassed to admit what I have done to any of my friends or family so I decided to write my story here in hopes of stopping someone else from ruining their life as well. I recently had a friend die and hthis event ended up teaching me so much about life. I am not a religious person so I do not beliueve in 2nd chances or an afterlife. I have completely ignored all my other hobbies for an entire year. I have drank and gambled, I have lied and I have cheated. I have done all the things that makes someone look like a piece of shit. I am going to get my life in order and go out of my way to treat future relationships with love and respect. If you knew the woman that I have lost, you would understand that I have made an enormous mistake. Thanks for reading my posting and wish me luck as I become reborn and start the only quest that ever matters; life. I am going to live and be happy. I am going to love and be loved. I am going to erase this year from my mind and work harder than ever to live up to my enormous potential. Thank you for having this tribe and thank you for hearing my story.